Monday, 30 July 2012 | 20:23 | 0 Atasinchi
Hey how are you?You were the first thing that came into my mind when I woke up this morning. Do you think of me at all? I hope you haven't forgotten me already.
You've got your Judo grading today. I'm sure you will do fine, I just hope you don't get yourself injured. You won't hear this until it's over but do your best.
When I was coming to school today, I bumped into a classmate of mine. She told me all about her experience with her ex. How they broke up twice, how it took them 4 months to get together. She said she won't do anything this time cause she already did the previous time.
That's why I'm going to try very hard to win you back. Because you did all the work last time. Just don't shut yourself off.
I miss you so much. How you hold my hands, how you hugged me, how you kissed me. I miss your touch, I miss the times we spend together at your house.
I'm so stupid, lusting and loving over you at the same time.
I suddenly remember the way you always used to call me princess because I told you it makes me happy. I felt so warm on the inside everytime you did that. But somewhere along the way... you stopped and I had to remind you.
Remember how I told you I rather see the princess get together with a commoner who will do anything for her then a prince who will give her everything and a knight that will protect her?
Well, you're everything. My prince, my knight.
And I'm still waiting for the day that you will sweep me off my feet again, just like how you always do.
Taylor Swift's the Story of Us really sounds like it's describing us, but here's the difference:
I won't let this be the end.
Hard work pays off right? I will try really really hard. To make you happy, to make you fall in love with me, to make you mine again. My first step? This entire blog. I want to let you know how I feel. When we meet again, I will make you sit down and read it all. I will figure out what to do from there I guess.
You know how you said I was suffocating you and you reached your limit?
I understand how you feel now. That was how I felt with my ex. I was scared you would stop loving me if I didn't remind you I was there. But that was wrong.
They are right, absence does make the heart grow fonder.
The more I don't meet you, the more I miss you.
So if we are together again, I've finally learnt my lesson. I will give you space to breathe, I promise.
Listening that song REALLY makes me want to text you. I was thinking maybe I try my luck in a week instead of two? I'm going really crazy!
But I feel so different now.
I was deciding weather I should SMS you good luck for Judo and when I did, you replied with a thank you. I WAS SO HAPPY. I don't know why, slap me. Maybe cause I thought you won't reply me at all? But the way I'm feeling now... it really feels like a schoolgirl in love with some boy who doesn't know she exist.
I have no idea why I get that feeling.
I took 2 COMPLETE walks around school before FINALLY deciding to drop by the sport halls to see if you are there but here is the retarded thing: I DIDN'T EVEN DARE TO GO IN.
I crouched down at the 3rd story entrance and low and behold, you are there pulling the mattress. I looked for awhile (FROM THE OUTSIDE) before mentally slapping myself and walking away.
I'M GOING REALLY BLOODY CRAZY.
Omg why is it that even though I'm away from you I feel like I'm falling in love with you more and more? What th hell is this!!!
I am so fucking stress over my projects now. I normally feel
so calm about it, cause you are always there morally supporting me. But now
that you are not I’m just... so close to breaking down. You were really my
pillar of support.
I just gave you the link to this blog, hopefully you will
read it.
I said I understand but I didn’t. Why is it too soon to be
friends again? I really don’t understand. Are you scared this will affect you
or something? Really this is too painful...
